Struggling with what to do…

What are your dreams?

What are your goals?

Your aspirations in life?

Do you have an ambition or passion that you want to create your life around?


I’ve been struggling lately to know what to do if I’m quite honest. I am a very passionate person with many goals and aspirations but I struggle to know where to begin a lot of the time.

I am an actor who wants to act. I want to be creative and take on roles that push me. I want to entertain and evoke emotion from people. Inspire, educate, captivate. I want to give people the experience I have when I see an amazing piece of theatre or film / televison show. I have passion and ambition but so far haven’t quite got my ‘foot in the door’ as it were. And my problem is I don’t know whether to keep trying to find the way through the door or whether to take some time away from it and focus on my other passion that has become another career for me…

Helping people.

I want to help people lead happier, healthier lives. I became a PT as I felt I needed a freelance job to run along being an actor, something to make me happy to get up in the morning and be happy when I wasn’t acting, something to provide a little bit more financial stability for me in between acting jobs… However it became much more than that.

I adore helping people. Seeing their relationship with the gym and their bodies change. It really is amazing, and I really want to help as many people as possible to fall in love with their bodies and themselves. But the thing is, this requires time. A LOT of time. It requires me to take different courses and read many books/articles to expand my knowledge. It requires me to keep working on myself so I can teach from experience. It requires me to put my all into discovering the best way to do this whilst also combatting against the other people out their trying to sell people quick fixes instead of a happy lifestyle. And you know what… it’s tough but its something I am passionate about and want to achieve.

My issue comes with not knowing how to succeed at both simultaneously.

I feel both need my all in order for me to climb the ladder to the top… but which one should I focus on first? Or can I discover a way to do both at the same time? Do I need to put one on the shelf in order to fully succeed at either?

It’s a tough decision.

Especially because I also feel like I need to be sensible and think about money. I want to save up to buy my own house. I want to travel and see the world. I want to find someone to share the adventure with. I want a family. I want to push my own fitness. I want to achieve different things in the world of fitness. I want so many things… I am one greedy mother fucker! And I know it.

I am also very aware it’s all very ‘first world problems’.

I get I could be in a much MUCH worse situation than not knowing which of my passions, dreams or ambitions to focus on. But for me right now this is one of the things playing on my mind and I’m not selfish for feeling the way I do.

I feel lost. I feel stationary. I feel like if I’m not careful I wont achieve anything.

So what to do?

Right now… I don’t have the answer. I have a few options that I’m going to trial out and see which one fits. I am going to keep trying to pursue both for now, whilst I’m in a position where I can, but I need to figure out the best way to do this. I am going to keep trying to find my way without letting things hold me back longer than necessary.

Try. Learn. Grow.

It’s not the easiest to keep feeling like a failure, or to have a case of imposter syndrome but you have to keep reminding yourself that this is YOUR LIFE. You are in charge of the type of life you live in terms of positive or negative energy. You can attract things too you; good or bad. So I’m trying to find the best way to attract the positive energy towards me rather than stay stuck in the negative.

I will let you know how it goes.

If you have anything you do to keep the positive energy flowing please feel free to get in touch and share.

#bettyoucan #bettican #bettwecan

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